Daddy's Lunch Pack #3

The 3rd day in a row that I've made my dad a lunch to bring to work. It's one of my greatest joys!! I might finally be able to really love my daddy and take care of him through making his lunch--loving him through his stomach? :D I looove making his lunch (and breakfast)! I started today's at 6:20am, after getting back from hoon dok he at church <3

PBJ bagel <3

I know it looks really pitiful... but we were running low on snacks after two days of lunches! Saltine crackers, a sizzler candy, and gum ><; I want to give my dad more, but he's not Japanese so he doesn't eat rice bentos, or any Asian things for lunch...

Really pitiful... a ginger snap and a homemade lemon bar (the last one, made by my sister last Saturday).

I learned how to make egg sandwiches yesterday! Just for my daddy <3 Egg on dark rye sammich~

All packed up with a Fiber One 50 calorie Strawberry yogurt and water bottle, and ice :)

Oatmeal, meet blogspot. Blogspot, meet the breakfast I've eaten for the past three months straight. So heart warming, heart healthy, and delicious. 1/3 cup of oatmeal with 3 of the smallest raisins from the container is my diet breakfast <3

Picnic with Mama

I parked on a random shady street in front of someone's house, before the bart station where my mom was going after. It was such a beautiful late summer day. Opened the top of the Mercedes.

My mommy <3

My mama's lunch, made by my 1st little sister. Ham, lettuce, cucumber, mayo on dark rye bread (bought with a coupon) and two peeled figs (free from a friend at church ^^)

The lunch I made for my 2nd sister before I left: a peach, a fuji apple, and 1/2 an orange, all cold ^^ She doesn't usually eat fruit so I was so happy for her!

My lunch! Fuji apple, peach, 1/2 orange. My entire lunch ^^ I occasionally have all fruit lunches to cleanse out my system because I usually do #2 after an all-fruit meal ^^ Plus it's part of my weight loss diet. It tasted so, good.

Peach Crisp

Last night, my sister and I made a peach crisp recipe and ended up with two peach crisps and an apple crisp because the topping recipe made too much crumble! It was so fun, and it smelled so good. My neighbor came over and our family had piping hot fruit crisps and vanilla ice cream while watching the AGT Finale! It was such a wonderful evening <3.>

Yesterday was such a wonderful day...

Part 1: Picnic with my mom in the car on the street in the shade with fruits (peach, orange, fig, apple), sandwich on rye bread and tenchicha <3

Part 2: Peach and apple crisp with vanilla ice cream <3

We used this recipe from allrecipes, but with many substitutions ::

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Easy-Peach-Crisp-II/Detail.aspx

Piano

I've been avoiding piano for two months! After not being able to play for a month, I'm afraid to go back, because maybe, I can't play anymore or something ;__; I FORCED myself to practice Survivor today, and... I'm happy to say, I'm practically done and ready to record :)

Randomly I also played Love Story, If We Hold On Together, The Rose, and I'll Make a Man Out of You XD

This morning was really good :) So far, three days in a row of waking up at 5:15 for Hoon Dok He with my mom. I'll do anything to be with my mom more. And not have anyone HOG her all day...

Lost 42 pounds so far. Walking is a chore, no energy, but man I am not going to fail this time. So close. I haven't been this skinny since... I can't remember. I'm skinnier than 8th grade!! I'm so happy. Only 16 more pounds to go~~~

Chinatown with my friends yesterday was SOOOO FUN. OMG SO FUN. Chinatown's boutiques have the CUTEST clothes I've ever seen in America!! Over Kohl's, Old Navy, Target, Wal-Mart, all those stores, I'm going back to Chinatown for my clothes shopping!! I actually fit into the Japanese dress and cover-up that I tried in the fashion magazine clipping covered fitting room!! I was so happy!! I NEED formal clothes for church, but I want to wait to spend any money on clothes until I reach my goal weight, which is BECKY!!! Becky Onechan. 43kg :) So, I was mostly scouting out the prettiest Asian styles in Chinatown, preparing my fashion sense for when I will get down to really picking and purchasing a pretty dress, or skirt XD

I hope, when I get to 43kg, I'm not too bony. Or worse, I hope I'm not still chubby!!! Becky's 157cm, 43kg, I'm 162cm... so if I'm the same weight as her I should be skinnier... we're exactly the same nationality, but still, she's lived in Japan so long, and I'm born and bred in America, eating American food, drinking too much milk in my childhood! I have bigger bones than Asian girls!! Bigger hips too. I've been bumping into chairs and tables with my hips these days for some reason. GAH. Still look so fat. Trying so hard. I'm happy to see proof that I'm not as fat, omg sooo fat as before though, because NOTHING FITS ME ANYMORE HAH. Everything is baggy! The shirts and jeans I only dreamed about fitting two months ago are now baggy, and fall off without unbuttoning. WOOT!! Not so good if I don't want to spend money until the very end and I have only clothes that slip off, especially my church skirt, but still, I'm so happy. And I will be happier when I finally reach my goal weight, but that brings a terrifying situation.

How in the world will I start eating more without gaining all the weight back? Eat a tiny bit more every day? I've been eating the same thing over and over every day, with only tiny variations. Oatmeal, fruits, vegetables, cereal with non fat milk. That's all. Every day. Oh, miso soup for dinner with my veggies. Anyway, this was supposed to be a one paragraph entry! Sigh.

Anyway, when I finally get to be my dream weight, I won't have to be afraid of Asia, especially Japan and Korea, and Japanese clothes, or Japanese fitting rooms anymore! Because I will be the same size as all pretty Japanese girls~~~

I Love my Mama

お母さん　大好き。

JULY HIATUS

I'm going to summer camp starting tomorrow for three weeks, until the 18th of July! So I won't be here, I can't reply to any emails or comments, but I promise I will when I get back, and get back to playing more piano for everyone! DBSK & SuJu LOVE <3 And hopefully w-inds. Moriyama Naotarou, Koda Kumi... many many! Yay!

I'm gonna drive the 6+ hours to Los Angeles tomorrow with my brother and sister! Without our parents!! I'm really getting scared. But I'm more scared about the actual workshop(s). Leadership, embarrassment, "growing," pushing my limits, my comfort zone... I'm trying to focus on the fact that I can see my friends again, but my fears are winning over... ;____;

I'll probably be tired or super energized and not wanting to spend time on the computer, which kind of depresses me especially youtube because I see how much I suck, but anyway not wanting to be depressing right now, I'll just warn anyone reading this that I might take all of July off and be back in August or later! Summer break, maybe ^^ But I'll be back, I promise, and play more piano for anyone wanting to listen... I hope to entertain you and support my beloved k-pop and j-pop artists <3

Good bye! :D
Southern California, One Heart Camp, 行くぞ！！！

ベッキｰ ♥

I'm exactly like Becky!!!! I knew we were similar, but now I looked her up and omo we're sooooo similar I'm sooooo happy X3 Her dad's British, my dad's British, her mom's Japanese, my mom's Japanese. Her name is 1) English 2) Japanese 3) British. My name's 1) English 2) Japanese 3) British. She has hazel eyes, I have hazel eyes!! They're the only part of my body that I accept and actually like. My eye color. Nothing else. Yet. GAH!! :D It's so cool... to be like her! ...as if... lol, this makes me feel hopeful about becoming a famous entertainer, model, singer and/or performer in Japan... ^^; Though I have NONE of her charisma, humor, Japanese fluency, hair & makeup & fashion sense nor confidence... I am working on it.